ive been in a wicked good mood all day.. and i suddenly feel really sad.. like, sick to my stomach sad.. and im not even really sure why.. well no.. i have some idea.. like, i think i know what caused it, but im not really sure why im reacting as i am.. and now its got me thinking of other bad things that i dont like about myself and its not wonderful.. i dont know whats wrong with me.. ive been so good lately.. even though ive been spending way too much time being stressed out about ceratain things.. things that im very tired of thinking about.. very tired of dealing with.. stuff i shouldnt have to deal with.. not healthy or normal things.. grrr... im going to stop.

so anyway.. me and chrystal tried going to chris's show last night.. only.. we showed up right after they finished playing.. we suck.. but they ended up winning so thats pretty exciting.. super duper.

the other day chrystal goes "chris.. you cant eat the flowers on the table cuz those are for stacy." just as a warning.. it was so funny. guess you had to be there.. and last night she was quoted as saying to me "i heard the way you smack my ass 4 times today!!" granted, this was in reference to that silly song, but still, it sounded really funny..

in case no one knows the lyrics to the song im talking about they go ... "i love the way you look at me... i love the way you smack my ass.. i love the dirty things you do.. i have control over you.." lovely eh? oh yes.

so i got a speeding ticket the other day. i SUCK. i do not have the $135 for this. im so in debt its not even funny.

ive seen chrystal like... the past 3 or 4 days.. im pretty excited.. i used to never see her. now i see her often. thats a great thing. im happy about it. 

im really tired. and im pretty sad now. i really suck. wow. im gonna go cuz i dont feel like talking about it cuz i dont even really know what to say. goodnight

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