cautious steps are taken as i tip toe my way along the path i seem to be perpetually forced to travel upon, trying not to shatter the sheet of glass that is stretched to cover every route i could take. step by step, always looking to the depths below me, which constantly seem to make themselves ever so apparent through the sheer surface that i am tretching across. the dangers below never appear to be quite as threatening when viewed through the sparkling window i place my feet, every so gently, upon. its all i lie. i know. and i am only slightly fooled by the disguise, but for those few seconds when i believe that the water below me is in fact tranquil, and i anxiously take a step to see if the view up ahead is just as beautiful, is when i realize it happened yet again. my foot crashes through and the glass shards scrape my legs as i plummet to the ocean below. the salt bites at my fresh wounds while the waves crash over head. i scream out in desperation, knowing there is no hope. i look up to catch a glimpse of you sitting at the edge, and i cry to you, but you turn your head. and once again, i take one last breath and surrender to the inevitable. why is it that i always seem to be drowning in your tears?

so i dyed my hair. im actually not quite sure what color it is cuz its still wet (in fact, i should probably rinse the conditioner out).. but i think its a reddish color maybe? "mahogany medium brown" to be precise. i enjoy being able to change my hair color. word up.

me and my sister and melissa went to bickfords tonight and we had a good time.. my sister drove home. at night. she did good. i love them.

im pretty excited. chrystal and kerry have both signed my guestbook as of late and really made me smile. i love my friends. im also pretty excited cuz me and lauren are supposed to be hanging out on friday and i havent seen that girl in forever, so that should be nice. she is a good time and i miss her. we will have fun. i cant wait. 

so my brother and becky have broken up like 3 times in the past week or so.. which makes me sad cuz i love her. she is so great. but she deserves way better than my brother, so i kind of hope they actually do break up. i mean, i love my brother and all, but he is a jerk. he is like the epitome of all asshole boys. he yells at her, doesnt appreciate anything. he can go out with his friends and have a good time but she cant. she does everything for him (buys him things, carts his ass all over the place) and he doesnt appreciate it at all. then apparently (i heard this today) he pays the kid across the street $10 a day on weekends to take the kids car to weymouth where he cheats on her with some chick. argh that makes me so mad!! this is the reason i hate boys.

anyway, im gonna shutup and go now before i get really pissed off. goodnight.

love michelle.

.. if youve got a quarter, you can stick it in my neck.. play whatever song you want for whatever mood youre in ..

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