i feel as though i have lots to say. i also feel as though i wont say half of it. i also feel as though nobody cares. anyway..

first things first. as of right now (or about an hour ago rather) im... well.. almost.. pretty much... blonde. yeah. weird eh? i agree. i dont know how i feel about it yet. i think im gonna add red to it. we will see. im afraid to do anything to it quite yet cuz most of my hair is falling out. yeah. 

second thing. im getting so tan its insane. well, im tan for me anyway.. which is pretty much just reaching "flesh colored" according to the rest of the world, but for those of you who know me, im tan as all hell. yeah.

so yes. im tan. and blonde. shoot me now. 

i went to megans last night. we had good times. her sister is a weirdo. she cracks me up... examples include:

"its like a tampon... you put it in your eye and forget its there" 
"id have better self esteem if my teeth were fucked" 
"i was straightedge... for like a half hour.. then it got boring."

i cant remember the rest. but this is the same girl who has a led zeplin tattoo on her calf, a big jesus tattoo on her left arm, a huge wizard on her back, a shamrock on her right sholder, and her newest addition of a purple baby inside a big orange pumpkin right below the shamrock one.. when asked where this idea came from she answered "it just came to me".. uh. yeah.

megan was also quoted today as saying (in all seriousness) "zack rules the school." she sucks. (by the way.. i heart saved by the bell) we also watched beverly hills 90210. word.

i also used the term "urinary delights" last night.. i dont know quite why.. well no, i do. because im a retard. but yeah. it was referring to me peeing on the floor.. and leaving urinary delights. or something to that effect. megan said the term sounds like lemon girl scout cookies. no thanks.

so theres a stray cat that was found by one of megans neighbors and its so cute.. but... it has aids. isnt that wicked sad? poor thing. i tried to have chris take it home with him.. but.. it wouldnt work.. i understand. sigh. poor kitty.

yes. so. the show tuesday was great. kerry didnt love it, which was sad, but i guess that wasnt a big surprise. shes punk rock and the show wasnt so ... :) yeah and so i realized that i am not such a big fan of dashboard confessional live. sorry. i love him and all but... i wasnt a big fan. i loved alkaline trio though.. even though theyre always way too drunk to play overly well.. but they still make me wicked happy and i was informed by kerry that they did a super job if that was them playing drunk. yeah. and i saw erin and dawn from school so that was cool. me and erin re-bonded over our drunken bonding adventure.. seeing as we had never spoken of it again. um. yeah... anyway theyre cool kids.

so i told kerry the other night how much i truely love being her friend.. shes just... so very different than anyone ive ever been friends with before. shes gone through a lot and just lives a completely different life style than me.. and its weird. but its quite nice.. because i feel as though im learning a lot from (and about) her and im glad. im happy about it. she said she felt the same way.. and that it was cool cuz i was the first friend shes ever had that could have a good time without being on drugs. precious eh? :)

so.. at megans we were reading this girls online journal.. and.. its so boring! well, it wasnt all completely bad, it has great potential.. maybe im looking for more? i dont know.. but.. i feel really bad.. cuz.. i dont want to be like that. wow that was so weird.. cuz this was never supposed to be an online "journal". i still dont like to call it that. its so weird though. it started out just as someting to keep me entertained. and now. i dont even know. but. yes. i really hope that people dont read this and hate me. if you do please tell me. in all honesty. i want to know. i suck. yeah.

im broke. broke as a joke. im also lame. oh my god!! the other day i was a rhyming machine. no joke dude! everything out of my mouth kept rhyming.. it was so insane. like.. all day. non stop rhyming fun i was. out of control. i wish i had written them all down, however, i never knew it would turn into an all day spectical so i didnt. eh. whatever. meet me in outer space yo. by the way.. all this hype about eo noodle.. we werent impressed enough to even get food there. so yeah.

so ive been saying some pretty weird things all the time lately.. for example "word to your mother" is constantly coming out of my mouth.. any time, any where, any context. it matters not.. i have also started making all kinds of insane jesus exclamations and im not sure why. im a retard.. some of them include "holy jesus".. "holy jesus" (spanish pronunciation if you will).. "mary mother and god".. "jesus mother and god" .. "jesus mary and joseph" (thats a real one. word.).. ive also been known to say "jumpin jahosaphat (?)" and today i said "holy guacamole" i dont know. i also dont know why im sharing all this. sigh.

im supposed to see mikey tomorrow.. but.. i dont see it happening. and that makes me really sad. and i think it makes me even sadder that i dont expect to actually see him. if that makes sense. sigh. we'll see. i drove by his house the other night though.  aww yeah... stalker adventures. or not. whatever.

tonight me and megan were watching the golden girls and getting all depressed because sophia was getting ass and rose was going out on dates and we were like ... ahhh even the golden girls are getting some. we suck.. yeah.

that reminds me.. chris sang a new song at the show. it was so funny.. kerry thought i was weird cuz i was telling megan i thought that it was cute even though it was perverted.. kerry found that to be amusing.. that i thought it was perverted, but in a cute way.. yeah but.. its funny.. he uses the term "get some" in it.. TWICE. shutup michelle jesus christ.

oh i have news thats going to make mike and brian soooooo mad.. i cant wait to tell them.. heh i am the devil. i hope i dont forget.

wow.. this is the longest, boringest, most retarded update ever. i think that i will end this soon. now even. peace.

love michelle

ps.. please excuse my retardedness for i dont completely understand myself.

.. word to your moms.. i came to drop bombs.. i got more rhymes than the bibles got psalms..

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