i think i want to make a new about me page.. i am not a big fan of that page anymore.. it is out dated.. well.. not really seeing as i didnt really change or anything but i am just sick of it.. or something.. but then again i am lazy so we will see.. 

so... my brothers birthday is tomorrow.. hes going to be 19. yikes! hes so old.. and my pal nicoles birthday is tuesday. she too is going to be 19.. oh weird.. theyre only a day apart.. strange. yes, you just witnessed my thought process there.. so many october birthdays. its crazy.

so my friends all think im weird apparently. im getting a complex now. i dont want to be weird. they say that im strange and that i scare people. this is very upsetting and im getting very self conscious about it now. i am not a fan.. and its even worse because they apparently discuss this behind my back and try and think of ways to "fix" me or whatever.. it is so depressing.. like i dont already have enough complexes..

my friends want to go to a club and see a drag show tomorrow night.. this sucks.. i want to go wicked bad but i am NOT down with getting all clubbed out.. and not even in an extreme sense.. i am just not even down with wearing anything that isnt jeans and a t-shirt. so i dont know how well this is all going to go over. maybe i will suck it up and wear a skirt.. why am i so not a girl..

well.. now me and my friend katie are having a lovely (sarcasm?) conversation about boys so i need to go for i am bad at focusing on two different things so peace. 

email me. please. im not desperate.. ha.

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