i never write on here anymore. it seems so silly and pointless. however, it is the only contact i have with a few people, and it sometimes occupies me, so whatever. i dont know. im way too tired to make sense right now. i got like zero sleep last night so im exhausted.. (however i had a nice dream so that was okay) so i should be sleeping, but my sister and melissa were way too excited to see me so i had to hang out with them. i love them both so much and hardly ever see them. i am so glad that me and my sister have actually become sort of friends. i mean.. weve always gotten along pretty much, but we actually talk and hang out lately, and i am so glad. i dont know if ive written that on here already. i know i wanted to but i often want to write things and dont get around to it. oh well. i find it funny that melissa often misses me more than my sister does though. heh.

so yeah, we went for a walk and talked and then johnny from next door came and sat with us out front and we all talked about my brother... how hes so weird.. and such a liar. and is so completely and utterly screwed. he is so going to end up going to jail. possession of class A, B, and D drugs. ouch. hes screwed. hes going to court friday. i have very mixed feelings about this situation. on the one hand, hes my brother and i love him and cant imagine him being gone and theres no way i WANT him to go to jail.. but at the same time.. he deserves it i guess.. i dont know. it sucks.. whys everything gotta be so complicated..

so i might be living with megan katie and rob come sept? crazy. there is mad apartment hunting going on. its insanity. and very random and last minute. hopefully everything works out? ive seen katie the past 2 days in a row. so weird cuz we havent seen each other in forever. we both saw each others "mission make overs". good times. 

i am so in love with the new saves the day cd. i always forget how much i love them until i see them live. theyre so good. and i always love their lyrics. examples of why i love the new saves the day so much......

"her life was magazines and faithful tv screens selling on an empty dream of cars and calories and everything in between the sun and saturns ring, but the price tag cant be seen.. and it took bites out of her insides til she was just a hollow shell" "my gut is burning, wont you find me some water? hey just forget it can you bring me gasoline and collect a couple forks and hold them three feet apart and wait for lightening to strike to burn me up?" "as im talking my words slip to the floor and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door rendering me freakish and dazed.. well here i am.. i dont know how to say this.. the only thing i know is awkward silence.. your eyelids close when youre around me to shut me out.. so ill go walking in the streets until my heels bleed and ill sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along.. and ill dig a tunnel to the center of the universe.. ill make my way across the frozen sea, beyond the blank horizon, where i can forget "you and me" and get a decent nights sleep." (okay, so that ones the whole song..) "the last time that i saw you, august of 99, i should have had my hammer and a few rusty spikes to nail you to the wall and use bottles to catch your blood and display you for the neighbors so they know your time has come.. and ill drink your blood and feel it dripping down my throat as it heads for my heart.."

yeah so im gonna stop that now cuz it doesnt really do them justice.. i dunno i just enjoy their lyircs so much cuz theyre usually just so random and graphic and painful but in such a cute, happy way. im twisted. whatever. everyone should go buy the new cd. im in love.

brian. start checking your mailbox. just kidding. dont get excited cuz your letters actually gonna be pretty boring and repetitive after youve read this. eh. i tried. :(

i am going to quebec on friday! i am becoming world traveler michelle! word up! im so excited. and me and megan might be going to florida come the end of august. what a great summer im having. im pretty excited.

im gonna go to bed. melissa said shed make me a wrap for lunch tomorrow before work... mmmm. i heart melissa. yeah i gotta go. i need to learn to shutup. peace out.

love michelle

.. you talked until your tongue fell out and then you talked some more ..

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