yes, its almost 2am and im like hey ive got an idea.. let me update my site. i have nothing to talk about.. i might as well inform people. wow im lame and i need sleep. why arent i doing that instead of talking about nothing..

anyway so i am having super happy internet experiences today (wow did i just reach an all time low..) christy signed my guestbook and made me so happy cuz shes super nice and i enjoy our brief chats and understandings of things we dont really discuss. i also got a super duper email fom chrystal and it made me really happy and we will need to have a big time discussion tomorrow and i also got an email from brian and i talked to him online so thats good too. i also just realized that kerry ended her post "anyway, i'm delirious (sp?-i need to go to school), so lemme know when you're home again"... because that makes sense?? what a silly girl. ah i love her. 

tomorrow will be a jam packed fun day. lauren en la manana (brian taught me how to make those n~ things before but i cant remember.. whatever) and then chrystal fun. woohoo. im excited.

i just remembered bridgets advice to never put anything in your ear thats sharper than your elbow. aww how i miss her. she was such a good time. sigh. she pinky swore shed come visit and everything. :(

im happy. but im sad. and im confused. but i know what i want. but i dont know how. and i dont know whats right. and im tired of everything being so complicated when it shouldnt have to be that way at all. and im tired of hurting. myself. others. i dont get it. argh. die.

im freezing. weather is the craziest thing.

im super lame. i seriously think i get lamer by the day. no joke. just go back a few days and read how ive progressivley gotten lamer and lamer.

so i think that my reading audience (ha) has grown from 2 people to 4 people. wow. it doubled!! holy bajesus. holy bazooka? i really am a dork.

$39.85=$60 in canada.. lets move.

so i had this thought.............. about how i needed to go to sleep.............. 

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